Hitting Rock Bottom...

People try to look for their own kind of addiction...they chase after the feeling of being "high"...this may be due to a lot of reasons. But there's one evident reason why most people like that kind of feeling...it's because for that short moment, you tend to forget the mess that the real world is giving you...

I'm not just talking about drugs, booze, cigarettes or caffeine...there are so many kinds of addiction that can give you a feeling of euphoria...

Reality check...people who are addicted will always hit rock bottom at some point. The euphoria will die down...and we'll be back to where we started.

Why am I talking about this? Let's just say, I'm hitting rock bottom...don't ask, it's hard to explain...but you know what? I've never made this much sense in a long time...

...I think I'm gunna buy myself new batteries for my pacemaker...I'm ready to breathe again...the cobwebs and dustmites are starting to bother me...i think i'm gunna have to schedule some spring cleaning this december...spring cleaning in december..hmm...sounds ironic...still makes sense to me...

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It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away....

Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you're there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse...

(Meredith Grey)

"Rantless" Thoughts...

To those who have been awaiting for my ranting moment, sorry but you won't find any today. (Awwwww....)

My mind has been preoccupied with "happy thoughts" lately...I'm back to never never land. I just realized that the small shallow circumstances in our lives, when you sum them all up, make a big difference....

To hell with the gossips that you hear about you...to hell with people who take you for granted! Goodbye to all the friends who betrayed you! (oops...I think I ranted a little bit there...) Let's try to see and uncover the small joys that really matter...

Here's my list:

• I have finally given in to my sister's plea of watching the Harry Potter series with her. I ended up getting hooked. What enjoyed me the most is the time I spend with my sister. I love watching her get so engrossed with the movie even if she's seen and read the books over and over again. I wish you could see the sparkle in her eyes. It blows me away.
• Funny faces with friends. It's very contageous! Posing for the camera with your funniest face is such a fun thing to do! For that very short moment, it makes you feel like you're a child again. (I will post our latest funny faces with Freestyle soon!)
• Dancing alone in your room. It's a great cardio exercise, plus, you get to do whatever dance move you want to do without being embarrassed or conscious of yourself because no one is there to watch you! I've been doing it since last weekend. My favorite pick: Kanye West's latest album (clap clap to my brother for the download.)
• I was able to get a hold of those cheesy 70's and 80's love songs last night. These are the baduy songs of this generation. But as my mom and I were listening to it last night, we couldn't help but give out a "haaay" or an "awwww, i remember that song!!!" It was like a trip down memory lane. Songs like Who's Holding Donna Now, Maybe This Time, Bluer Than Blue, Taxi Dancing, So Much In Love, What Do We Mean To Each Other, Very Special Love, Penny For Your Thoughts, Come What May, Hard Habit To Break...etc......On my way to work, I was listening to it and singing with it in the car. I was enjoying the moment so much that I didn't notice how bad the traffik was!

These simple joys make me forget the crappy moments in my life. These short but sweet moments make me realize that sometimes, if we want to search for happiness, we don't need to look far. It's just right in front of us. =)

Have a great week friends!!!

Freud says.....

"unexpressed feelings will never die...they are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways..."

...lagot......