For K

It's been more than 2 years but I have never been this in love...I have never been this happy...I feel so complete, I feel so free. I am my own self but I still feel that I am one..with K.

I have lived my life loving music. Every agony, every heartbreak, every joy, every memory, I associate with songs..with words that depict what I am feeling at the moment.

I can think of a million songs to describe the joy that I am feeling right now. I just want to embrace this moment forever. Here are some excerpts of the medley of songs that are ringing in my head right now....

NEVER SAW BLUE LIKE THAT (Shawn Colvin)

..And even now, I'm so amazed
It's like a dream, It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain
And somethings are the way they are
And words just can't explain

Cause I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky
Around the world
You've given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that before

YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME (Allure)

I've gotten close so many times
Trying to fit in I don't know why
I had to leave behind a dream that could be mine
I thought that I would never find
Someone who's heart could read my mind
Now I don't have to hide cuz you are in my life

I promise you that love won't be easy
I promise you there'll be times apart (apart)
But I swear that it comes from my heart
When I promise you're the only one for me

MAKE ME WHOLE (Amel Larrieux)

I think the angels are your brothers, yeah
They told you about me, said you're just what she needs
And I find myself thanking your mother
For giving birth to a saint
My spirit flies when I say your name
If there's one thing that's true
It's that I was born to love you

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

You make my dreams
Come true over and, over again
And I honestly truly believe
You and me are written in the stars
I live my whole life through
To giving thanks to you

I love you...thanks for all your efforts...everything right now feels like a dream...I don't ever want to wake up, if even as I close my eyes, I still see you...

Spoiler for Smallville's Episode 4 Season 6

I am starting to fall in love with the green arrow....I think I smell a collaboration with the Man of Steel and the Green Arrow very very soon....

To Oliver Queen....I will be dreaming of you tonight...I think your arrow just hit me straight to the heart...

Damn it Lois, you're one hell of a lucky woman....

Last Song Syndrome

After K and I said our goodbyes awhile ago, this was the song playing on the radio...it was really how I felt at that moment. I didn't want to leave...I wanted the time to stop just for a moment and be right beside him...until now, the song is playing in my mind...

COME A LITTLE BIT CLOSER (Brandy)

I know that it's late
And maybe I shouldn't be so into you
It's just that tonight
I am so taken, I've fallen for you
When I look in your eyes I can see
A million possibilities
And I know you'll be leaving me soon
But tonight

Come a little bit closer
Let me hold you baby
I will be good to you
And we can try
To forget tomorrow
And make it last forever tonight

So if you must go
Know that I'll be missing you, wishing you closer
So let's make the most of these
Moments together, we'll never forget
And it's breaking my heart 'cause I know
That tomorrow you'll be miles away
And I catch myself wanting so much more
Tonight

Come a little bit closer
Let me hold you baby
I will be good to you
And we can try
To forget tomorrow
And make it last forever tonight

So if you’re leaving me now
Baby I don't know how
I will ever get over you
Because you opened my eyes
To this love that's inside
Oh baby, don't ever, ever leave me

Come a little bit closer
Let me hold you baby
I will be good to you
And we can try
To forget tomorrow
And make it last forever tonight

You Are Not An OPTION...Don't Lose Yourself In Love

To all my friends and loved ones who are in a relationship, who are married, and who are single as well, and for everybody reading this, let this be an eye-opener to all of us.

Thanks Lee for the text...this is very very true..this text made me feel so lucky that I am NOT an OPTION..still, I will make sure that I will never lose myself in love, no matter how much love I give...


How can we love people who don't seem to make things work at all?

Why do we become so numb caring for people who at times don't even think of us in a day or two?

Why do we let ourselves get hurt and why do we continue hoping for a love that makes us defenseless?

And why do we prioritize these people who only choose us as options?

Are these are reasons why sometimes in love...we end up losing ourselves?

Just Friends???

Sad to say, we, as human beings, are curious in nature. We don't just want to see things as it is. We tend to assume or read between the lines when in fact, what you see is just what you get. Gets?

Example #1. When a single guy volunteers to accompany a not-so-close friend to get something somewhere, the friend would assume that the guy likes her and there you have it, a 'moment' has developed (or she would think).

Example #2: When a single girl becomes friendly to a guy she just met and they suddenly have this great conversation over the phone, the guy would assume that they had a 'moment' (or so he thought).

How do we really define 'moments'? How do we differentiate and see the fine line between being just friends or being more than that? Sometimes it's human nature that dictates the answers to these questions. Human nature tells us that when a good-looking guy develops a kind of friendship with a girl (whether single or not), people would think that there is an attraction between them...but no one would really know.

It is very possible for people of the opposite sex to become close friends and not be attracted to each other. Believe me, I've been there. And for my gay friends (who I love so much), I know that it is very possible to become close friends and not have any attraction...

Sometimes, guys are just plain friendly and people should stop assuming. Unfortunately, when girls become too friendly (regardless whether you're single or not), human nature dictates that it's wrong...human nature tells us that this girl is easy or desperate. It sucks I know but if you want to be part of the norm, you have to accept it one way or another.

Why am I talking about this? Well, I am sick and tired of hearing gossips about moments that never really took place...or about imaginary moments that were fabricated by people...I am so tired of listening to stories that this person had a 'moment' with this person, only to find out that the person was just assuming. Lastly, I am sick and tired of people assuming that just because someone is too friendly, he already has a hidden agenda.

I just wish that someday, we would all be open-minded enough to see that friends are friends, nothing more nothing less...let us for once stop wondering whether this guy likes us because he's nice to us or because he's so friendly and fun to be with. Guys need female friends too...and there's nothing wrong with that. Something becomes wrong when you start to have malicious thoughts or when you assume too much. In the end, sinong talo? Diba ikaw din? So why waste your time on pondering on those impossible 'what ifs'?

Just take it as it is...you will be just friends....accept that now...before you end up getting hurt. And to those people who love to assume and gossip, just remember that what goes around comes around. I'm pretty much certain that you wouldn't want the last laugh to be on you..

Just One of Them Days

I'm suffering the from worse case of PMS ever!!!!! Yup, all the signs are here...crankiness, tummy cramps, migraine, fever and diarrhea.

Worse thing is, I'm allergic to pain relievers! Kat will just go with the pain.........

As our helper would always say before..."oh man!!!!" (pronounced as "ooohhh meeen"), it's just one of them days....so to everybody who i will eventually cross paths with later, please don't take it personal...it's just one of them days....

Don't Take It Personal (Just One of Them Days) by Monica

It's just one of them days, don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone, and you think I treat you wrong

I wanna take some time out to think things through
I know it always feels like I'm doing you wrong
but I'm so in love with you
So understand that I'm only in love your the only one I need
So have no thought that I want to leave and baby trust me please

Just one of them days
That a girl goes through
When I'm angry inside
Don't want to take it out on you
Just one of them days
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think I treat you wrong
Don't take it personal
Baby baby baby baby, don't take it personal

I see and I think about every thing we do
And I find myself in misery and that ain't cool
Hey now, I really want to be with you the whole way through
But the way you make me feel inside keeps me confused
As I swing back from mood to mood it's not because of you
I never want you to be insecure,
so won't you understand that I'm only in love, your the only one I need
I'll be there for you when you need me boy, so baby don't you leave

Just one of them days
That a girl goes through
When I'm angry inside
Don't want to take it out on you
Just one of them days
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think I treat you wrong
Don't take it personal
Baby baby baby baby, don't take it personal
Don't take it personal
Baby baby baby baby, don't take it personal
Don't take it personal, yeah , don't take it personal

Don't take it personal baby
Personal baby, personal baby, personal baby
personal baby, personal baby

Pain...

Hi friends. I just arrived from Bacolod. I have so many stories to tell, so many pictures to show. But I'm too tired and sleepy from the trip and I think I'm going to be catching a cold..so, I will be sharing with you my great experience in Bacolod next time.

But before I go to sleep, I want to leave you with something that I received awhile ago from Miki..this is for all my brokenhearted friends and for all the people I know who are hurting right now....

Our heart stops for second every time we sneeze...
Maybe that's why sneezing feels good...

Coz even for a second,
we become numb to the pain our heart carries.

Good night everybody...hope to see you soon!!!

Bacolod...

Hi guys!!! I'm here at Bacolod. We arrived at around 8am, had breakfast with the band (Freestyle) then we went to our rooms...

We are staying at Sugarland Hotel (parang candy factory noh? hehehe....) It's pretty cozy, I'd probably give it 3 stars (coz they don't have a pool!)... =)

I'm bored as hell...thank God for WiFi and for special treatment (hahaha!!!) they provided me with a laptop. We'll be having lunch in a bit, I still don't know where but I heard we'll be eating their famous Bacolod chicken at this famous restaurant here....

Thanks to Winston, I have been given the opportunity to visit different parts of the Philippines. I could say that the domestic airport is my second home. For the past 3 years, I have visited places like Cagayan de Oro, Naga, Legaspi, IloIlo, Bacolod, Cebu, Davao, Baguio, Dagupan, Batangas, Pampanga, and of course Boracay...don't you just love my job? =)

Oh well, I have to go...some of my friends from Bacolod will be giving me a tour (this is my 5th time here)...I love this place. It feels so homey and the people are very very "malambing"...

I will update you guys soon...I have so many things to say. Maybe when I get back, I will be writing an entry about it soon...have a great weekend!!!

One of My Favorite Topics: FOOD!!!!

Got this from my soul sister, Cat Juan...and since I can sense a lot of tension and sad emotions in my friends' blogs, I have decided to do this entry.

So to all my friends...let us all forget our problems even for a bit and focus on one great topic: FOOD!!! I don't know with you guys but when I'm sad and depressed, I pig out and eat my sorrows away (kaya ako tumataba...kaya ako na-chichismis na buntis...hahaha!!)...feel free to answer this as well. =)

FOOD FOOD FOOD!!!!

• Favorite Comfort Food: Lays Classic...or Coffee Crumble ice cream

• Favorite Breakfast Meal: Fried rice, fried egg and spam or bacon (but then again, I hardly eat breakfast because I wake up at noon =)

• Favorite Lunch Meal: Sinigang!!!!!

• Favorite Dinner Meal: Sinigang again!!!! Or grilled food like liempo or tilapia...

• Favorite Dessert: I'm not really a dessert person. But if ever, I couldn't resist the cakes at Conti's especially their Sans Rival and Fresh Apple Pie.

• Favorite Cake: The cake selections at Conti's

• Favorite Pasta: Angel Hair...sauce: carbonara or anything cream-based.

• Favorite Dish That Others Find Weird: There's a delicacy in my grandparents' province called Humba..it's a kind of adobo, only oilier and drier...we eat it with hard saba..and then I usually eat banana with bagoong...the best!

• Favorite Fruits That You Haven't Eaten In Awhile: any citrus fruit is my fruit...I haven't eaten kiat kiat in awhile (those are the small oranges that we usually see during Christmas season)

• Favorite Junk food: Lays Classic or Sour cream and Onion, Pringles Classic or Sour cream and Onion, Oishi Beer Match, and Kim's favorite V-cut.

• Favorite TV Show Related to Food (Cooking show, Travel show with food, etc.): Rachel Ray's show at the Lifestyle Network, Martha Stewart's show, before when I was a kid, I'd watch Nora Daza's show every saturday morning.

• Favorite Pastries: Cream Puffs, GoNuts Donuts or Krispy Kreme, Bizu's ensaymada

• Favorite Way To Eat Potatoes: mashed...I love McDonalds French Fries too!!!

• Favorite Ice Cream: Coffee Crumble...or any ice cream with lots of nuts (except walnuts...I hate walnuts)

• Favorite Alcoholic Drink When You Really Really Want To Party: this will be long!! Hmmm....Jose Cuervo Tequila, GSM Premium, Jack Daniels with coke, Johnnie Walker Black Label on the Rocks, Carlos I straight up, Pier One's Royal Premium Juniper, Musikero's Zombie, Moksha's Lychee Martini, Summerplace's (Boracay) Shark Attack, and of course BEER!!!!

• Favorite Bar Chow: Pier One's crispy pata, Aruba's cheese sticks, Moksha's open wanton, Ratsky's nachos, Side Bar's Pizza (great with beer!), Cencillo's quesadillas

• Favorite Chicken Dish: Baked

• Favorite Place To Eat With Your Sweetheart or Best Friend: K and I just love eating at home..sometimes we eat anywhere at West Gate Alabang.

• Favorite Place To Eat With Your Family: Mongkok or Conti's

• Fill In The Blanks: I Wish I Could Eat _____in/at_______with__________: I wish I could eat choriburger at Bora with K.
  

Scenes From Smallville (Clark and Lana)

...Everything by Lifehouse.....

The Meantime Guy (For My Single Friends)

Meantime Guy?

He's the one you call when you're bored because he makes you laugh. He's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because he's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. He's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. He's the one you spend time with between boyfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

He's not one of the girls, but you don't look at him as a "real" man, either. He's not bad enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. He's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your female buddies are amused by. He's too understanding, too comfortable ; he doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" man does. But he's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate male companionship, he'll do just fine.

You don't have to wine and dine him because he knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of him. He's not easy, but you know that he cares about you and is attracted to you, and that he'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that he'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for him.

It won't bother him that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the man you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. He'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call him and tell him how the date went. He's just so cool . . . why can't all men be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although he would never say it, it hurts him to know that despite all his good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think he's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly his fault, because he doesn't have to give in to your needs ; he could play the hard-to-get asshole like the rest of them do, if he really wanted to. But you and he both know that he probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe he's too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on his forehead, or works at Taco Bell.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given him a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that women want (or think they want) in a man. So he remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching
for the man of your dreams who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a man.

You'll joke to him that he should be the best man at your wedding, and he'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.

He doesn't captivate you with his looks or open doors with his smile. Mainly he blends in with the crowd. He's safe. He doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But he wants to turn someone's head. He wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

He has feelings. He has a heart. In fact, he probably has a bigger and better heart than any man you've ever known because he's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and he likes you anyway. He obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given him nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, he is.

Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Guy. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want to let every girl know who's ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Guy that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't be around...

Mo Twister, Magic89.9, and Episode 2 of Smallville Season 6

I am currently downloading Smallville's second episode. While waiting for it, I was channel surfing and came across GMA 7's show, Star Talk. They were interviewing Mo Twister and they talked about how he has insulted a lot of people from showbiz.

I have been a supporter of Magic 89.9 since I was in high school. I even remember listening to them every friday just to listen to Joe D Mango's Love Notes, and I would religiously listen to Mo Twister and Miles' show. I am happy to say that I have gained a lot of friends from the station. Regardless, I will not be biased with my comment about the interview I just watched minutes ago.

First of all, I am very much entertained by Mo Twister's show in the morning (together with Mojo Jojo and Andy 9). I will admit that I very seldom get to listen to their show because I am still asleep at that time, but everytime I tune in at that time, I always find myself enjoying and laughing my brains out. I commend Mo's integrity and his honesty awhile ago. I commend his braveness and his straight-forward way of answering all the questions given to him by Butch Francisco. Most of all, I commend the way he apologized to the people he offended. With regards to the issue of people being hypocritical, I am on his side. His show is no different from The Buzz or Star Talk or S Files. These shows meddle and get inside the personal lives of a lot of actors and actresses. So why cast the stone on him and his show? Radio is no different from tv. I don't see why people, especially those in showbiz, make a big fuzz on his radio show. It just means that his show is very effective and a lot of people listen to it!

Lolit Solis should just keep her mouth shut. Mo is right, she is more than double his age but in my opinion, when it comes to credibility, she has none...and she is more immature than any middle-aged person I know...that's all I have to say.

My Smallville is ready...til my next entry!!! =)

10 Things I Hate About You...

Here is one of my favorite movies...I wrote a blog about it entitled "I Hate That I Don't Hate You...this is my favorite scene in the movie.

CLARIFICATIONS: The Real Reason Why I Left UNITY

I don't know whether to laugh or be insulted with the different versions of why I left the band. So once and for all, I will say my piece and then shut up... (parang The Buzz)

For the past weeks, I have heard so many versions from different people...

TRUTH or MYTH...

* I was kicked out by my band mates -- MYTH!!! (I would like to believe that my band mates love me very much. In fact I was the one who called for the meeting and I was the one who said my goodbyes...I had never encountered any major problems with any of the members and they are like family.)


* I am pregnant -- MYTH!!! (just because I have been wearing loose tops during my last few shows does not mean that I am pregnant. I just gained weight. And just because I gained weight doesn't mean I'm pregnant either )


* I am getting married -- MYTH!!! (I wish! Hahaha! But no, I'm not getting married...it is still not part of our plans...sorry to disappoint you guys, and I'm sure there are also a lot of people who are happy to know that )


* I am pursuing a solo career -- MYTH!!!! (hello???!!! If I wanted to have a solo career, I would have done that years ago. But I choose not to. Why? Because I love Unity and I love John Paul)


* I am putting up my own band -- MYTH!!! (There is no other band that I would want to be with but with UNITY...end of story)


Here's the real deal. I love singing dearly and leaving the band really breaks my heart. But there are certain things in life that we have to do. There are certain decisions that we have to make not because we want to but because we need to. I am not getting any younger and I have so many responsibilities to fulfill --as a daughter, as a sister, and as a person. I will never leave my passion for singing. It will always be there. But there are some mature decisions that I have to make before it's too late. I know that in the long run, my decision will not only benefit myself but my loved ones as well.

Yes, I dream of getting married. Yes, I dream of becoming pregnant --one day...when I'm ready. But for now, I will be going back to the corporate world. I have been hearing a lot of insights from my friends about my decision. Some are for it, some are against it. But the most important thing is, everyone who knows me and who loves me are very supportive of my decision.

It didn't take me overnight to decide upon this. It took me almost 2 years to think about it. And I am happy that even if a lot of people that I love are against my job (I don't blame them...they just love me), they still supported me and accepted me. It is my turn this time to return the favor.

As I always say, I loathe the thought of regrets and 'what ifs'...I will make this work...I promise.

Words of Wisdom From Sex & The City

I have been receiving this email a hundred times already but I never get tired of reading it. It makes so much sense. I think this should be every woman's credo..

Here is my say to this entry: let us all remember that we should be the captain of our ship. We shouldn't put our lives on hold for anybody. I know it's so easy to say it but it's so hard to do. And yes, those who really know me would tell me to practice what I preach. I guess we are all guilty of giving too much and getting so hurt in the end. Bottom line is, we should savor every experience and be ready for the consequences that come with it.... here are some of the lessons learned in the HBO Series. Let us all learn from our best friends, Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte...

WORDS OF WISDOM FROM SEX & THE CITY

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Don't force an attraction.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

There's ONLY ONE 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

Always put yourself and your happiness first.

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

Be honest and upfront.

Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.

You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.

Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself - double standard.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!

Don't compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.

Actions speak louder than words.

Never let a man define who you are.

NEVER rely on a man for compliments, look to YOURSELF for that.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.

To use painful hard-won wisdom -- 'get it right' the next time.

Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the #1person in your life.

Love is a verb ....

Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

If you don't love yourself...you can't love anyone else.

You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

When Are We Ever Going To Be Happy?

I got this email. It's very true. It made me think about what I have right now and what I want in my life...then I realized that life is just one big simple puzzle. We are the only ones making it difficult. We try to figure out the puzzle but we are blinded to what's right in front of us. We are asking for more...we are looking for missing pieces...or we're trying to fit the wrong piece of the puzzle in the wrong place.


When are we ever going to be happy?

...when we convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another? Then we get frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.

...when we tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, when we are able to go on a nice vacation, or when we retire.

The truth is there's no better time to be happy than right now.


If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges.


It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.

Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with... and remember that time waits for no one.


So, stop waiting...

Until your car or home is paid off.

Until you get a new car or home.

Until your kids leave the house.

Until you go back to school.

Until you finish school.

Until you lose 10 lbs.

Until you gain 10 lbs.

Until you get married.

Until you get a divorce.

Until you have kids.

Until you retire.

Until summer..

Until spring.

Until winter.

Until fall.

Until you die.

There is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

So work like you don't need money,

Love like you've never been hurt,

And, dance like no one's watching.

The Return of Kal-el

I just finished watching the season 6 premiere of Smallville.

It was breathtaking.

Welcome back Kal-el. I knew you would defeat Zod...

I am loved...

Despite the storm that destroyed our weekend and damaged a lot of properties, despite of me leaving the band, despite of the million questions in my brain that cause a lot of confusion and sleepless nights, I am still loved.

I am loved because....

....my brother wakes up at 4:30am just to bring me to the airport when I have out of town hosting gigs and shows because he doesn't feel safe for me to take the cab.

....my mom makes sure that everything in the house is in order. She is my role-model.

....my family accepts all my flaws and still loves me very much!

.....Kim lives in Laguna but he'd make sure he picks me up at the airport when I get back from my out of town gigs. He worries about me to the point that when the storm screwed up the cell sites, he went as far as Caltex SLEX just to call me to check up on me.

....I have friends who send me loving messages and supports all my decisions.

....I have John Paul who is hurting that I have to leave but still he understands my situation and despite our separation, he reassures me that nothing will change.

....I have met new friends who show concern and help me out with my job-hunting adventure.

So whenever that I feel that life is tough, I just try to remember all the people who love me..I am really loved.